fear

i can't breathe
i'm being crushed under the weight of it; i promise i can't lift that much
it's like a steel knife in my windpipe
i can't breathe
but i still fight while i can fight
i've never been here before
i've never felt this way before
i've done hard things, sure, but this; this is too much

this fear,
i'm being weighed down
my pants are sagging under the weight
it's strangling me, its got both hands on my throat
this fear is strong

strong as the shadows and monsters of my childhood imagination
strong as the wind in my face going 80 mph down the highway
it's as strong as my love for her, just before i moved away.....
this fear

it's gripping me
it's got control of me
why can't i stop it?
why can't i do anything to control it?
why can't i force myself, just this once
to take a leap of faith
force down that fear

but i can't.......
i can't do it
i can't do it
i can't do it
i can't do it
i won't do it
i won't do it
i won't do it

because i've got nothin to say to you
i've got nothin to say to you
i've got nothing to say to you

i've go somethin to say to you.......
i can say it
i will say it

this fear holds me back
this fear controls me

yet fear...........
is an obstacle to overcome
when i overcome it..........
my victory will be that much sweeter